Can't Get over my Ex!! Comtemplating Doing the Unthinkable.HELP PLEASE!!?

I met michael jackson when i was 12 and ever since then i feel like we're soulmates. I feel like we were in a relationship, when he ped i tried to go be with him but it didnt work. I can't stop thinking about Michael.I think about him all the time. He give me erflies Inside!!! I cut myself sometimes to eaze the pain of not having him here with me anymore. I try to tell my parents about how I need Michael in my life but They Don't Really Care About Us! I want him even in death- I think its Human Nature. I fantasize about making love to michael jackson's corpse every night. I'm a Pretty Young Thang and I am in love with Michael Joseph Jackson-dead or alive, and always has been.I have a blow up doll of him that I sleep in the same bed with but its not the same. I want more! I want Michael! Death Cannot Keep Me Away from him!!!My grandmother told me to get over it but I Never Can Say Goodbye!! I tell myself that maybe he'll come back, Maybe Tomorrow.Michael is a icon Gone Too Soon and I Remember The Time when I would dream about visiting to Neverland and making love to him. Honestly, I don't Wanna Be Startin Something, but I want to have with his dead body in hopes of having his baby. I wanna do him so Bad.-like I really want to Beat It. Plus Id get a huge Thriller out of it. Is this possible to do without being a Smooth Criminal??I know going to have with a dead body is Dangerous, but I think about making love to him so much that I just have to Scream!!Just the possibility of carrrying Michael Jr. in my womb would Rock My World. Does anyone else have these feelings? Please just tell me I Am Not Alone." Michael Jackson Rocks My World- sorry I Can't Help It!!!! I am considering visiting his gravesite soon.I am gonna make love to him so good and I Won't Stop Till I Get Enough!! I seriously love this man!! Its The Way He Makes Me Feel!!!Do I have to get permission to do this or can I do it Off The Wall????????Michael if you're out there I Wantcha' Back!!!!!!!!!!!! Will i go to jail if I try digging up my man's body and making love to him??